Vogue Williams reveals she had two miscarriages including one 'awful and heartbreaking' loss a year ago before 'nervously' falling pregnant again with her fourth child

Vogue Williams has revealed she had two miscarriages before she fell pregnant with her fourth child, including one 'awful and heartbreaking' loss a year ago.

The presenter, 40, and her husband Spencer Matthews shared the happy news on Thursday that they are set to welcome another child to their family.

Vogue spoke about her pregnancy for the first time in a new video posted on her YouTube channel, telling her followers she felt like 'her body had failed her' when she suffered her baby loss.

She said that while she and Spencer are excited to be welcoming a new addition to their family, the miscarriages have made her 'nervous' during her fourth pregnancy.

The couple married in 2018, and are already parents to Theodore, seven, Gigi, five, and Otto, three, tied the knot in 2018.

Vogue shared that her first miscarriage, which happened at around four weeks, was 'really upsetting,' but she and Spencer went on to welcome their daughter Gigi in 2020.

She said they suffered further heartache last year when she went for a 12-week scan after falling pregnant, only to be told it 'wasn't really a pregnancy' as the embryo hadn't grown.

Vogue said she was 'really embarrassed' and 'upset' by the second loss, and she admitted she felt like 'her body had failed her.' 

Speaking about their baby news at the start of the video, Spencer shared: 'We're so happy. We feel very... hard this time round to get to where we wanted.

'Definitely more bumps in the road in order to actually get pregnant, but obviously we feel really fortunate anyway to have three kids, but this one's been harder to get to that, well this bit, the announcing, but also just to actually get to where we wanted to be, has been been rough.'

Vogue then opened up about her first miscarriage, sharing: 'It happened to me before I had Gigi. It was so early on, like so so early on. We hadn't had any scans. We hadn't had anything like that. 

'I must have been maybe a month if even, and it was just one of those things and it was, it was awful, but it was everything happened quite quickly after it as well.

'So, I never really kind of thought about it much. It was really upsetting at the time, but then I was pregnant quite quickly after, but it actually happened to me last year as well. And it was, just I was literally about to tell the kids. 

'You could kind of start telling I was three months and I just didn't go for an early scan. I just never even thought about it because I kind of didn't want to make a fuss - stupid now!'

'I went to the 12 week scan on my own, I told quite a few people about it, like my parents, my brother, and my sister, and some people at work. And I just hadn't told the kids.'

Vogue shared that when she visited the hospital for the 12-week scan, she immediately noted the concern from her doctor.

She explained: 'And basically what had happened was, he had the pregnancy sack. I forget what the whole thing was called, but basically the embryo hadn't grown, my body still thought it was pregnant. 

'And usually you just naturally get a miscarriage, but I didn't. It just kept like it would have eventually happened, but it just didn't at the time. 

'I was three months along and [the doctor] was just like, ''I'm really sorry, it's just, it's not it's not really a pregnancy and you're going to have to get well, there's a couple of options.''

'So the very nice people at Chelsea and Westminster NHS, thank you so much. They were really amazing with it. 

'Obviously when I found out I was like ''I just don't want to have to feel pregnant anymore'' because it was awful feeling it and not being it, because I still had the symptoms.

'I was just like, I just want to start again and just not have to deal with it.

'We were really upset. I was really upset. Stupidly I felt embarrassed having to tell everybody, and it's not an embarrassing thing but that was just an emotion I had. 

'I was really upset and then I felt like ''oh God I have to now tell everybody who I've told'' and I just feel stupid, like my body has kind of failed me kind of thing. 

'And then I went in to the doctor and they said, ''Well, we could give you tablets,'' but I was going to Spain at the end of the week and I was just like: ''I just don't want to have to change all that for the kids and for myself and I don't want to be stuck here on my own and I just want to be done.'

'So they offered me a DNC as well, which you go in, you have an operation. 

'It's really quick. I went in and I did that and it was really quick and then the whole thing was just like, I was so happy to be going away because at least then I didn't have to be, I was kind of able to just be on my own in my own thoughts and be able to think about it.'

Vogue then shared that her heartbreaking loss meant she had felt 'nervous' throughout her fourth pregnancy.

She continued: 'I wasn't sure if I was going to say it now, but I'm going to be just, I feel like this this pregnancy now I'm just always going to be, I'm always nervous, and sometimes I'm grateful that I feel so sick all the time because then I know it's there and it's what it should be.

'I just thought that I would tell that story and hopefully it helps other people who that happens to and there can be light at the end of the tunnel.'

'I wasn't sure if we wanted to try again, because I just felt like, I really don't want to have to go through that again.

'I'm glad we did obviously, but now I just have this constant nervousness around hoping that everything is going to be all right. 

'I think that I was like. I got looked after very well. I know it doesn't always happen with people, but I think that I was just I was in and out very quickly within two days and then I got to go away. 

'Because I got to go away, I got to just be with in my own thoughts. I wasn't at work all day, so it was quite good and now I'm very happy that we are pregnant again.

'But as I said, the nerves will kind of always be there. And I keep saying, and it's so annoying, but I just I don't know why. 

'I find I'm never sure if I should say this, because so many people go through really bad things like this and sometimes worse. 

'I have friends who have had very very late pregnancies go wrong like six months down the line. So it was three months and obviously it's still heartbreaking for anyone. But I just feel lucky that we're able to be here now and be pregnant again. 

'I'm starting to I feel like, when you get to that stage, 12 weeks - what's it called? The second trimester. How do I forget? I'm forgetting everything!

'I'm kind of getting to that stage of I've got my energy back. I'm starting to feel slightly better. So yeah, I just thought I would share that. I don't really know how to end this, but thank you for listening to the vlog.'

Later in the video, Vogue shared that she was heading to the hospital for an early scan after her previous miscarriage, and all had gone well.

The video also featured the sweet moment Vogue and Spencer told their three children they were going to have a new baby brother or sister.

The couple shared their pregnancy news with their social media followers on Thursday, alongside sweet snaps of them from their family trip to St Barts.

In a series of sweet beach snaps, Vogue showed off her growing bump in a black and white bikini and matching sarong, while Spencer gazed adoringly at her.

Beaming for the cameras on the white sandy beach with their three children, the couple wrote: 'BABY NUMBER 4 INCOMING… ❤️❤️.' 

Podcaster Vogue and her former reality star husband Spencer, who share three children, Theodore, seven, Gigi, five, and Otto, three, tied the knot in 2018. 

However, they suffered split rumours after they failed to publicly mark their seventh wedding anniversary – months after Spencer stepped down from their joint podcast, Spencer & Vogue, to focus on his own project, Untapped.

But Vogue previously insisted that she and her husband are 'happy' and that their marriage is secure, while dispelling past rumours of a potential crisis.

Speaking to The Sun, the presenter said she has reached a point in her life where only 'their truth' matters, stressing that they remain very much a happy couple.

She recalled: 'When he left our podcast, everyone was like, 'What's going on?''

Vogue also admitted to worrying about their children hearing the 'baseless and cruel' gossip at school.

She had previously addressed the claims in an Instagram post, telling followers: 'It's with great sadness that I have to let you know that Spen and I are NOT breaking up!

'I usually avoid addressing baseless and cruel rumours, but this just keeps coming up.

'It's disappointing to see this narrative being pushed almost daily when it's absolutely not true, and much more importantly, I don't want my children hearing these lies in the playground.

'We're not sure what the angle is or where it's coming from, but the whole thing feels very strange and mean. We're very happily married and in love and I hope posting the truth on my own platform might make it stop.'

Asked whether her denial had helped silence the rumours, she told The Sun: 'Of course not! I'll probably not bother next time.'

If you have been affected by this story, you can seek advice at www.miscarriageassociation.org.uk or by calling 01924 200 799