Matt Zukowski reveals he cried 'once a day for four months' following split from ex-wife Tammy Hembrow - and how his shattered heart learned to heal on Daily Mail's brand new podcast THE DEBRIEF

Matt Zukowski is finally speaking out on life after Tammy Hembrow.

One year after their split, the former Love Island Australia star has candidly revealed the one thing he misses most about his marriage to the 32-year-old fitness influencer.

Speaking on Daily Mail's brand new podcast The Debrief with Savanna Young, Matt, 31, opened up about heartbreak, life post-divorce and the surprising part of their relationship he still longs for.

The ex-reality TV star said he found it especially difficult to walk away from Tammy's three children, who he had been a stepfather to for the short time they were married.

Tammy shares two kids – son Wolf, 11, and daughter Saskia, nine – with ex-fiancé Reece Hawkins, and one daughter, three, with ex-fiancé Matt Poole.

'Of course I do,' he replied when asked if he misses Tammy's kids.

'That was one of the hardest things about leaving. I would cry like once a day about that for like, three or four months after [the divorce],' he said.

'I wrote them that many letters just explaining stuff. But I never sent any of them. That was part of my healing I did in therapy.

'I just never sent them, because I don't know what they're being told. So it wouldn't be fair to them.'

Matt added that he would love to see Tammy's kids again.

'But like I said, I don't know what they've been told,' he continued.  

'And if I'm the bad guy. I'm happy with that. If that makes them, you know, okay with it and get over it.'

Matt has previously revealed that he is unable to have biological children of his own.

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In 2021, he revealed on his podcast, Where's Your Head At?, the tragic moment he was told he was infertile.

Matt said he picked up on his infertility by chance after his ex-girlfriend, Keira McGuire from The Bachelor, told him the 'consistency of his sperm' was 'weird'.

'I thought I'd be OK... I was just like there's no chance,' he told co-host Anna McEvoy about the ordeal.

As a result, Matt procrastinated until he finally underwent sperm testing.

'The doctor called me and said, 'Look, Matt, I was going to call you in but I'll do it over the phone, you have no sperm,' he explained.

'And I was like, 'Oh, I've got low sperm?' and he's like, 'No, Matthew, you've got no sperm.''

Matt went on to see a few different specialists, who advised him he was born with 'undescended testicles', a condition which meant his testicles grew into his stomach.

Despite undergoing surgery for the condition as a child, it appeared to have left him with permanent damage to his sperm.

'I'm sad for Matt 10 years from now who is gonna wanna have kids with the girl that he loves,' he said.

Nevertheless, the former Love Island star revealed earlier this year, during his stint on I'm A Celebrity... Get Me Out Of Here, that he and Tammy discussed having children. 

The pair had considered IVF options, he said, but added that they never took the plans any further than a few discussions. 

Tammy and Matt first started dating in late 2023 and got engaged just a few months later in December during a romantic holiday in the Maldives.

They tied the knot in a lavish Byron Bay ceremony in November 2024.

However, their whirlwind romance quickly came to an end when the pair split three months later, with their separation becoming public seven months after they wed.

Tammy is now currently dating 23-year-old model and actor Grayson Te Moana, with the pair hard-launching their relationship at the Sydney premiere of Wuthering Heights in February. 

The Debrief with Savanna Young is now available on Daily Mail's YouTube, Spotify and Apple Podcasts, with new episodes dropping weekly.