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She's been involved in a number of high-profile scandals, one being an elaborate drug sting by The Sun's notorious Fake Sheikh which left her fearing for her life.
And Tulisa Contostavlos revealed she continues to feel 'under threat' as she revealed she sleeps with a knife under her bed since her nightmare case in 2013.
Tulisa nearly spent four years in prison after she was arrested on suspicion of supplying class A drugs when Mazher Mahmood, also known as the Fake Sheikh, tricked her into giving him a contact from which he bought £800 worth of cocaine.
The N-Dubz singer, 36, said she has slept with a weapon under her bed for most of her life after she thought 'people were trying to kill her' when she was being tricked by Mahmood.
Tulisa was offered £3.5million for the role with promises she would star alongside Leonardo DiCaprio. She was flown out to Las Vegas for meetings with producers.
In part two of Paul C Brunson's We Need To Talk podcast, she admitted: 'I live like I'm still under threat to this day. I've slept with a knife under my bed pretty much most of my life now.
Tulisa Contostavlos, 36, revealed she continues to feel 'under threat' as she revealed she sleeps with a knife under her bed following the elaborate drug stint in 2013
Tulisa nearly spent four years in prison after she was arrested on suspicion of supplying class A drugs when Mazher Mahmood, also known as the Fake Sheikh, tricked her into giving him a contact from which he bought £800 worth of cocaine
'Don't know what it is I'm preparing for some sort of assination attempt? I know it sounds crazy.'
'I practice archery at home, I have a bow and arrow. I am prepared, if I hear a bump in the night I am ready to go.
'It's that energy. I don't live thinking about it but as soon as I hear a I'm up and ready to go.'
Tulisa also revealed she urged ITV to 'take her off camera' in the days after her I'm A Celebrity departure because she was having a 'breakdown'.
She made a swift exit from Australia within days of being voted out of the Jungle, having deleted all traces of her appearance on the ITV show from her Instagram.
Tulisa left fans wondering why she suddenly left Australia and chose not to appear in the Coming Out show alongside her campmates.
She said: 'When I came out, I began to cry when I had the first moment to myself.
'And the first thing I did when I spoke to my team, they said '"What's wrong?"
The N-Dubz singer said she has slept with a weapon under her bed for most of her life after she thought 'people were trying to kill her' when she was being tricked by Mahmood
Tulisa was offered £3.5million for the role with promises she would star alongside Leonardo DiCaprio. She was flown out to Las Vegas for meetings with producers (pictured in 2013)
In part two of Paul C Brunson's We Need To Talk podcast , she admitted: 'I live like I'm still under threat to this day. I've slept with a knife under my bed pretty much most of my life now'
'Don't know what it is I'm preparing for some sort of assination attempt? I know it sounds crazy. I practice archery at home, I have a bow and arrow. I am prepared, if I hear a bump in the night I am ready to go;
'And I said "Please don't put me back on camera. I need to be off now, too much. I'm really proud of myself, but I pushed myself too far, too soon, I need to go home".'
She added: 'You want me to be there out of principle? When I'm having a breakdown right now? No, I need to go home and process this.
'I guess in a way I'm blessed to be that person to say if my mind isn't feeling healthy, I'm going to take care of myself. I'm not going to push myself over any edges. I need to take care of myself, I need to protect me.'
Finally revealing why she chose to archive all of her pictures from I'm A Celebrity on her Instagram when she came out of the jungle, Tulisa said: 'I did delete everything.
'I came out and the same night I was having a cry I was like I'm not going back on camera.
'I was looking through my socials and it was just all me and I was in flip out mode. I just wanted it all gone and to go home and process things.
'I wouldn't say I've processed it all. I'm at like 70 percent right now. For me to be in the public eye I need to do things that are a bit more hard hitting, things like this [the podcast]. Just keeping it 100% real.
'If I can be in the public eye and it's like that, then I can do it.'
Tulisa also revealed she urged ITV to 'take her off camera' in the days after her I'm A Celebrity departure because she was having a 'breakdown'
Tulisa left fans wondering why she suddenly left Australia and chose not to appear in the Coming Out show alongside her campmates
Finally revealing why she chose to archive all of her pictures from I'm A Celebrity on her Instagram when she came out of the jungle, Tulisa said: 'I did delete everything. I came out and the same night I was having a cry I was like I'm not going back on camera'
'I was looking through my socials and it was just all me and I was in flip out mode. I just wanted it all gone and to go home and process things'
In part one of Paul's podcast, Tulisa opened up on the struggles she faced with her mental health both in the jungle and following her exit, with the star admitting that she struggled to gleefully mingle with the 'happy campers' while she was 'sat crying in her hotel room'.
Tulisa also told of the moment she almost quit the show, with the singer left in tears and struggling to breathe during a harrowing anxiety attack that wasn't shown onscreen.
Explaining the battles she faced that viewers were not privy to, Tulisa said: 'Some of the things you didn't see, I had night terrors for the first four days. I was waking up out of my sleep, and I was having anxiety attacks.
'Those parts, not everyone knows, so it wasn't completely smooth sailing for me at all, but I have a great poker face.
'I really can turn it on and especially when I'm faced with adversity. The last thing I wanted to do was go in there and be the hot mess. So if anything, I'm going to be the biggest soldier there is.
'So as soon as I'm set with a task and I'm going in and jumping out of a plane, I'm going to look like a warrior, because that is what I do. I might sit and cry under the sleeping bag, that’s also a part of who I am.'
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