Lorna Luxe reveals she was 'fearful she would be judged for every decision she made online' after she became a widow aged 43

Social media influencer Lorna Luxe, real name Lorna Andrews, lost her husband John to adrenal cancer on February 11, leaving her a widow aged 43. 

Lorna, now 44, built up a loyal fan base of followers who love her down-to-earth take on fashion and beauty, Get Ready With Me videos and enjoyed appearances from John who idolised her. 

But when John died, Lorna admitted she feared that people would judge every move she made online. 

Over the last 12 years, John would advise Lorna about her content and would even shoot her videos for her in the early mornings before he went to work.  

In an interview with The Daily Telegraph on Tuesday, Lorna said: 'After John died, I was fearful that every decision I made was going to be judged online. 

'I wondered what people would think, but I've actually had a lot of encouragement. I just announced that I'm going to look for a base in London and as John used to cook for me, they were very invested when I bought an air fryer.'

Lorna said she's unsure of whether the continued support she gets from her followers is because of their love for John or because they sympathise with the reality of her situation. 

When John was battling cancer, Lorna said her social media job gave her a reason to get dressed up and that in turn helped John to stay motivated.

She said: 'Posting motivated me and I think it was also good that John could see me showing up. If I hadn't put any effort in, I honestly think he would have given up sooner, but I was keeping him going.' 

Lorna said she understandably 'looked pretty rubbish' for the first two weeks after his death, but she dressed up for his funeral as a way of showing up for him. 

She bought a Victoria Beckham dress and a new coat and believes John is with her when she wears them again. 

Lorna is now focusing on her collaboration with high street fashion brand River Island and her own label, LA-S, as well as her beauty and haircare brand, 98 Beauty. 

Last month, Lorna shared an emotional tribute to John as she marked his first birthday since he died.

Alongside the post, she penned: 'Today would have been your 65th birthday. I miss you John so so much… 

'I’m reading all the notes you left me and I’m doing all the silly sh*t you told me to… spending today with our favourite people and remembering so many special memories we shared together x.'

The moving post comes after Lorna revealed that she has still not slept in the room she shared with John since his passing.

Lorna and John met when she was 25 and he was 46.

She was in the midst of her eight-year stint as a Virgin Atlantic air hostess, before marrying in NYC shortly after and going on to live together in Hove, East Sussex, and later Horsham and Warwickshire.

While John previously worked as a banker, following his cancer diagnosis in 2023 and Lorna's continued success as an influencer, he gave up his job to focus on his health and helping his wife work.

The couple liked to indulge in posh hotel stays and 'dirty weekends' in far-flung destinations throughout their 16-year marriage.