Kate Cassidy breaks down in tears as she returns to the home she shared with boyfriend Liam Payne: 'I've never felt this much pain'

Kate Cassidy broke down in tears as she returned to the home she shared with her late boyfriend Liam Payne in England on Friday.

The One Direction star died aged 31 in October 2024, after falling from a hotel balcony in Buenos Aires, Argentina, and was found to have alcohol and cocaine in his system.

The American influencer, 25, emotionally shared she has 'never felt this much pain' as she spoke in a new TikTok video while revealing she had been sitting outside the home for 45 minutes. 

Liam owned several homes, most notably a mansion in Buckinghamshire as well as his rental mansion in Florida.

She said: 'I've been sitting outside of the house that I used to live in with Liam for the past 45 minutes just in my car and it's just really hard to wrap my head around the fact that I'm not pulling in the driveway and going home to him being there.

'You really just never know what life is going to bring. Live can bring you plenty of happiness and plenty of joy, I've experienced it all. But I've never felt this much pain.

'I came back to the town that me and Liam had a life in and where we were happy. I've only been here for two days, I really, really thought that this trip would help me move forward. But I feel like this trip has been the opposite for me.

'I would do absolutely anything right now to be able to pull onto the driveway and just be walking into the house with him waiting for me on the couch.

'I've been doing a lot of things that me and Liam would enjoy and instead of it bringing me comfort, it's really just brought me nothing but sadness. I feel like I'm just five steps backwards.

'And I do love being here, I know that makes no sense because I'm sitting here crying my eyes out saying that it's bringing me so much sadness but I love it so much because I was just so in love with him. 

'Here, where it all started. Our life really, really began together and it's just been really hard.' 

Kate had been staying with Liam in Argentina. But she left for the Florida mansion two days before the singer plunged from the third floor of the hotel.

Last year, Kate broke down in tears and said that her future boyfriends would have to accept that she’ll ‘always love’ Liam.

The influencer shared an update as she hit back at an online troll who said that they wished he would stop talking about the late singer and move on.

The pair had been together for two years before he passed away, with Kate documenting her journey with grief on social media.

In a TikTok video, Kate said: 'I want to make something clear. Whoever I end up with in my future will have to accept the fact I will always love Liam.

'I will always talk about Liam I will always laugh about Liam, I will always cry about Liam.'

Kate continued: 'Let me tell you something, Liam Payne was my boyfriend. He wasn’t just this famous figure to me.

'It hurts so bad because I am just criticised all the time for speaking about my boyfriend that passed away, the person that I loved and still do love.

'I would never settle for anyone in this lifetime who did not feel comfortable enough with me speaking about Liam.

'Liam was a very big part of my life. He was my best friend, somebody I really thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with and, obviously, I know one day I’m going to have to move on. I want to get married one day. I want to have kids.

'When a person dies, they die twice, once when they actually die and the second time when you stop speaking about them. I’m not going to have Liam die twice on me. I will love him forever.'